Us, this, whatever we are becoming or not becoming; it's terrifying. Putting yourself out there, showing vulnerability to someone new, it's pretty scary stuff.
No one likes having to start over with someone new, but that shouldn't be the reason we shut down and runaway. We've all been there. You had a terrible past experience with a guy/girl; the love of your life cheated on you or someone fell out of love; it happens. It sucks but it happens. For two years I ran away, avoiding anyone who might be able to get close enough to me to hurt me again. I had trust issues and a huge fear of getting heartbroken again so the answer was to avoid any possible romantic partner all together.
Then I met you..
Everything came so naturally. Slowly, my walls fell down without me even realizing it. It's different with you. I'm not afraid to open up to you or be myself around you. I like it. I like knowing that there is someone out there who was able to make me feel again after I thought it wasn't possible.
However. giving you all of me also scares the crap out of me. I'm giving you the power to hurt me but I'm hoping you won't. We're on the same page though, even if you don't realize it. What we have is good and it can be great and I think you know that, you're just afraid.
Like me, you had bad past experiences and you're struggling to let them go. You're trying though and I can tell with how you've started to open up, slowly but surely. Take your time, I'll be patient with you as you are with me. We're both terrified, we might as well be terrified together.
