If you know me, you've probably heard me say, "I have to ask my mom." Yes, I am 19. But still, I need to ask. I've been trying to plan a spring break trip with some of my friends, when we started thinking about a cruise. But before I got ahead of myself, I told my friends, "Sounds good, but I'll have to ask my mom."

I even still use this as an excuse. We all have texted our mom to say "no" before we call them to ask to sleepover a friends house, when we really didn't want to. When I go home for winter breaks, I often feel overwhelmed by all my high school friends who want to hang out. I'm coming home from a long and hard semester. When they ask to hang out, I still will say "Let me ask my mom if we have any plans today." (Sorry guys)

Growing up, mostly in my middle school phase, I would get a little ahead of myself and say, "I'm going to my friends!" as I quickly tried to hurry out the door with no questions asked. But my mom would immediately stop me with the "Are you Asking or Telling?" To which I would quickly change that, "I'm going" to "Can I go?" As I got into high school, it just became more of a habit, especially when I got my license. I craved the freedom, but also needed the approval.

It's always been more of a respect thing, my mom has always provided more than enough for me. I was blessed enough to have a car to drive during my high school years, and then able to bring it to school with me. I don't pay the taxes or payments on it. The least I can do is ask.

 I go to school 120 miles away from home, so no I don't call my mom to ask her everything. I go to my mom, for basically everything. Whenever I'm conflicted and need guidance, I'll call her and ask her what to do. Or even when I don't understand my homework. Or when I'm having friend problems. I will always ask my mom.

I am well aware that I am in fact growing up, and there will come a point when I probably won't need to ask my mom anymore, but honestly I'm not ready for that. Once you stop asking permission, it gets way too real. It's like you're really an adult. I really only know a handful adults, and from what they've told me, adulating is hard. As much as I hate to admit it, my mom truly does know best, I'll always ask her for advice or even what I should do.