Are you tired and worn down- feeling lost and broken?
If so, you're not alone.
This doesn't mean that you're weak, it means that you're human.
You are a human with flesh and bones who needs rest in Him.
Living with General Anxiety Disorder and also Panic Disorder is something that I cannot control. I never know what the day or night will bring. My symptoms aren't just mental, but I physically feel an attack as well.
Sometimes this illness causes me to struggle with my worth. Am I trusting God? Am I doing something wrong? Why me?
I know the Lord has great plans for me and I know that as long as I am tuned in to His heart He'll make straight my path.
But when I find myself in a panic- having a full blown attack for seemingly no reason- it takes some time to mentally get myself back to where it is on a good day.
I am tired.
I am tired mentally and physically, but yesterday I wasn't.
However, I serve a great God who loves me enough to help me fight this battle so that I am not alone. He wants me to find rest in Him.
Unfortunately, it doesn't make my anxiety, worries, doubts, or fears necessarily disappear. What having Him on my side and in my heart does is give me peace that I am loved and His child.
Having Christ living in my heart gives me the reassurance that there is a plan for my life and He is going to use me- all of my. He wants my brokenness because in Him we are made whole.
And if that isn't good then I guess I don't really know what good is.
The bold stated truth I just shared is something that I want to have so deep-rooted in my soul that I never lose sight of that even in my days of struggle. The struggle happens and quite frankly I am having one of those days now, but knowing the peace that He gives and focusing on Him over the ugly trust that anxiety is gives me the weapons to fight through the ugly and begin to rest in Him.
Anxiety is different for everyone.
Symptoms and diagnosis will vary between people.
But Jesus remains and He is constant.
I pray that in your struggles you seek Him. Instead of giving credit to anxiety turn to Jesus and ask for peace, comfort, and guidance on how you can cope through this mental illness and turn to Him and rest.
You cannot fight a battle while you're tired.