If You Don't Want Me In Your Life, Tell Me...

If you no longer wish to speak to me or you no longer want to be friends, please just tell me. Tell me what I did wrong, tell me your reasoning on why you no longer want this relationship. Don't just cut me off out of nowhere, don't drop me out of the blue and expect me not to ask questions. I will constantly wonder what I did wrong. I am a big girl, I can handle being dropped, I just can't handle not knowing why.

I never expect to be friends with anyone forever, because unfortunately, even the best friendships come to an end, but if you're ending our friendship, I need you to give me a reason, I need you to explain it to me. If you don't, I will bother you with questions, my thoughts will drive me crazy and I will question everything that happened our entire relationship. I will constantly think about why you decided to just cut me off. It will bother me forever.

It will bother me forever because of this, just picture being friends with someone for so long, having them know all your secrets, your biggest fears, worst mistakes, biggest regrets, your goals, aspirations, knowing every little thing about you. They are your person, the person you count on to be there for you through everything...then suddenly they just become distant, each and every day, it becomes more clear that they want nothing to do with you. They become too "busy" to even reply to simple text, or answer a phone call when you need someone most. You just ignore it, because we're growing up and life gets busy, but then it becomes real. You realize they dropped you from their life and you have no idea why. Now you start to question everything you've ever said to them, you wonder if you made them angry, or annoyed them. You constantly think about the last conversation you had, not knowing it was going to be the last one. Now you seem desperate for attention, you text them more, ask them to hangout with you, and each time, you get no reply. It saddens you, you're hurt, but mostly confused. It confuses you because you have no idea what you did wrong...you're angry because this person meant a lot to you and you wonder if you even meant anything to them. It's like one day you were best friends, the next they're just a stranger with all your secrets.

That's how it feels whenever someone drops me from their life without telling me what I did wrong. If you've ever felt like that, don't do it to someone else.

This is a PSA to everyone in my life, if you don't want to talk to me anymore or if I made you angry, just please tell me what I did wrong. Otherwise, it will sit in the back of my head and I will question it forever. It will be a constant thought that runs through my mind on a daily basis. I promise, I can handle losing a friend, but I can't handle not knowing why.