This isn't going to be sentimental or kindly asking for a flag to be waved. This isn't form me to say that I'm going to miss you or that I hope you'll do well.

This is for me to say what I couldn't find behind the anger, confusion, and tears. You hurt me; you were once someone who I thought was my friend and now I have some things to say to you.

There is this saying that goes, "The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies." It always hurts the most when it comes from a person who you thought you knew and thought was your friend, and now I can account for that.

I feel like you treated me like I was nothing.

For most of my life, I put other people's happiness before my own because that is what made me happy. I felt as if our friendship was very one-sided on both ends. I felt as if I was there for you in times of need but when I really needed you, you were no where to be seen. The amount of disrespect you gave me after everything happened was beyond shocking.

I've come to learn that being selfish is a necessary attribute of life; being selfish is natural and healthy. As humans. we have to make choices that are best for ourselves at times. But theres a high difference of being selfish and self-centered; because when all you do is think of yourself and do not see where other people are coming from, that is called being self-centered and thats when you need to reevaluate who you are as a person. That is not what a friendship is. I am not and will not be someone or something you can use to get yourself an ego boost. I would be there in a heart beat if you were broken, but where were you when I was broken? I felt used and ultimately unwanted. When it all came to the end, you really made sure to try to make me feel down to my lowest point. You destroyed me. I currently feel numb to emotion, as if they had been shut off due to an emotional overdrive. I've been broken after you showed me your true colors and the friends you really are.

Thank you for making me appreciate the people who are and will always be there for me. I have to now reevaluate a lot of things right now in my life and friendship is one of them. I want to spend more time with people who bring me up, inspire me, and could talk about things in life that have a deeper meaning. You had made me realize that I had let people in my life that didn't deserve my time, and maybe you feel the same way about me.

I wish you the best of luck wherever you end up; things definitely did not end for the best of us, but I will never wish ill will onto you even tho I feel like you wouldn't do the same. I truly hope you learn from this because I surly did.