We've all been there in some way or another. That point past friendship, but not quite up to relationship status. Sure, you might sneak kisses quite often and maybe even hook up on the regular. You might act like a couple, too; he'll hold your hand in public occasionally, and you've had real conversations about your mutual attraction to one another. But it reaches a point when you realize you don't know what you actually mean to this person. If the chemistry is there, why hasn't anyone initiated that next step? Is it because you're scared that maybe you two aren't on the same page? Or maybe one of you doesn't want a label? With this realization comes a lot of confusion, and more likely than not you realize it just might be time to move on.
But it's not like this is even a breakup. Feeling sad about the end of whatever-this-was may even feel silly. How can you be so upset about what technically never was?
I've been in more almost-relationships than actual relationships, and I treat all endings the same: movie nights with my girlfriends, lots of tissues, and even more junk food. But you can't live in a Ryan Gosling and cookie dough fantasy world forever, as much as you wish you could. There comes a point when you need to face your heartbreak head-on and move forward. It's not easy, and it's going to take time, but there are a few things to keep in mind in order to get over what could have been, but just didn't.
First off, distract yourself in whatever ways possible. Being in college, we have an unlimited amount of opportunities to get involved and stay busy. Clubs, studying, parties, studying, exploring, studying, meeting new people, and, of course, studying. Not having anything to distract yourself from your aching heart makes it more likely that you'll try and get your almost-was back into your life, which would probably be an unhealthy option.
There was no official breakup, because you two were never an item, so where does that leave the both of you? Can you still be friends after all that you've been through together? Some say yes; others say absolutely no. I say it depends on each unique situation. Before you decide if you want to give friendship a go, I would recommend taking some time away from that person. Stop constantly looking at their Instagram, stop waiting for texts that probably won't come, and definitely stop trying to make things normal right away. Things aren't going to be the same as before, which is the point of the "breakup." Give it time! Take a step away and focus on yourself first.
Lastly, and most importantly, face the truth that this person was never truly yours and that things happen for a reason. This was your "almost," your "kind of," your "maybe in another life." You both obviously weren't ready for one another, in some aspect. Don't feel like you failed before you even entered the game. You got the experience, and that's something, right?
And even if you end up in bed yet again with this person, when you told yourself over and over that you were done, don't be too hard on yourself. I can promise you more people can relate than would ever admit.




















