As an unabashed dreamer; a believer in fairy tales and happily ever after; a girl who lives unequivocally as if every moment is actually a movie playing on in her head for only herself to see; I live for concerts. What is more movie-esque than driving two hours with two of your best friends to see a band that makes your heart full and your mind wild? The answer is nothing.
If you’re like me, then you plan every moment of every day ahead of time. You make lists of things you need to get done, list of things you should get done and lists of things that probably won’t get done. All these moments add up and before you know they’re passed and every night you wonder where your day went and how could it have gone so fast. You are not present, there's always something else you should be doing. You are never there in the moment ‘just because.’ When I’m a concert it’s the closest thing I’ve ever felt to actual ‘just being.’ There’s no need to plan the next three hours of my life. There’s no need to be anything.
I fall in love with a lot of things. I fall in love with: people (romantic love in not the only love you can have), places, emotions (like the never ending sadness when you’ve finished a book), situations, animals and facial expressions (I really love scrunchy nose laughs). But I am unable to put into words the feeling that you get in the middle of a concert. It is in a sense more than love; because you are not in love with a person or an object you are in love with this sense of being. If I could live every day, every moment, as I do at a concert, then I would be infinitely happy.
I’m sure there’s a million and one ways to fall in love at a concert. It could be with the music, a song, the person next to you, your friends, the band. All of these are perfectly acceptable ways to be in love. But next time you’re at a show and the lights are going off and whoever you’ve come to see is just coming on and the momentum is building – close your eyes. Let yourself just be. Scream the words as loud as you can and dance. Nothing will make you feel more alive or more loved than the feeling you get. It’s total euphoria. You are not only in love with yourself in this moment, but with everything going on around you. Put all your worries and your fears and even your dreams aside because right then they don't matter. In the grand scheme of things you are allowed to want those few minutes to be nothing.
No love is technically better than any other love, but if I had to choose I would choose this self love every single time.