In high school, I was always that girl who was super involved in everything. I was in a ton of clubs and always spent around 12 hours a day at school. I loved extracurriculars, and I loved being busy and feeling like I was doing things.
However, since getting to college, I have found "getting involved" to be much more difficult. The organizations that I want to be a part of all have extensive application and interview processes, and I've found myself facing a lot of rejection in the past couple of months. Initially, I felt sort of sad and lost, as though I didn't really have a place because I wasn't going to meetings every night.
However, I've found that by not being as involved in activities as I thought I would be this first semester, I have actually gotten to take some time to rest, a sensation that I kind of missed out on in high school. Even though I'm not the most involved person in clubs, I can be involved in other ways. I get to spend my time going to different meetings and exploring different things within my school without the huge time commitment of one thing overshadowing the others. I get to have time to get work done, and to spend time with my friends.
I am involved in the time that I get to spend with people here, and involved and engaged in my classwork, and involved in exploring all that my college community has to offer. If it weren't for the rejections that I faced, I might be involved in more organizations, but there is also so much that I enjoy that I would have been missing out on. While I still want to continue searching for my passion and finding organizations that fit my goals and interests, I am happy with taking a step back for a while and getting to just enjoy being present in the early days of my college experience.