How Praying Affected My OCD

How Praying Affected My OCD

Praying can be a good thing, but it turned out not to be with combating my OCD.
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When I first discovered I had OCD I didn’t know what to do or how to combat my obsessive thoughts. I come from a Christian background and was told to pray to God and He would help me fight off my obsessive thoughts. That sounded like a perfect anecdote to me so that’s what I decided I would do.

Every time I had an intrusive vulgar thought I would bow my head to pray. This seemed normal to me because, obviously, vulgar thoughts were not acceptable to think about as a Christian. However, I became obsessed with prayer. My prayers were never good enough and I had to say them over and over in a specific way to feel like I had forgiveness or acceptance from God. This turned into a nightmare and I spent many long days with my head bowed. People would look at me and wonder what I was doing because all I ever seemed to do was have my head bowed and be whispering to myself. Everyone seemed to notice and look at me so I felt even more insecure.

However, focusing on them to fight them only made things worse. It makes my intrusive thought seem 3,000 times bigger. After a while, I simply had to come to realize that it was not a sin to have these intrusive thoughts come into my head. God knows I have OCD and He knows that these thoughts are not from me. I am truly thankful for an all knowing and all powerful Savior. Of course, if I acted out these intrusive thoughts and truly thought about them freely than I would need to talk to God and ask for forgiveness. This helped me not become so obsessive over prayer when it came to my intrusive thoughts.

OCD is an interesting creature itself. It is one that people seem to know little about and that is why I write these articles. I want to shine a light on OCD so people that have it can relate to someone and people that don’t have it can become educated on what OCD is like.

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  1. The first warm day of the year
  2. Laughing so hard your abs ache
  3. Freshly washed sheets
  4. Looking through old pictures
  5. The smell of a coffee shop
  6. Eating cookie dough
  7. Reading a bible verse that perfectly fits your current situation
  8. Seeing someone open a gift you got them
  9. Eating birthday cake
  10. A shower after a long day
  11. Marking something off your to-do list
  12. Drinking ice cold water on a really hot day
  13. Dressing up for no reason
  14. Breakfast food
  15. Being able to lay in bed in the morning
  16. Finding something you love at the store
  17. And it’s on sale
  18. Cute elderly couples
  19. When a stranger compliments you
  20. Getting butterflies in your stomach
  21. Taking a nap
  22. Cooking something delicious
  23. Being lost for words
  24. Receiving a birthday card in the mail
  25. And there's money in it
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  28. Waking up from a nightmare and realizing it wasn't real
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  30. Walking barefoot in the grass
  31. Singing along to a song in the car
  32. Sunrises
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  35. Summertime cookouts
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Poetry On Odyssey: Some Days

A poem that reminds you that you're not alone.

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Some days,

You dread the sound of your alarm. You snooze and snooze and snooze and snooze.

When you finally pull yourself out of bed, pressed time forces you to throw on stained sweats

you find yourself chugging a cup of coffee.

You sit on the couch and contemplate calling out of work

You caught the stomach bug,

Or perhaps the flu,

Maybe you broke your collar bone

Or need a new phone

The endless list of excuses repeats through your head as you sit on the couch, wishing you were still in bed.

It takes every ounce

Every breath

Every fiber of your being to pull yourself off the couch

And into the car

And into the building where you work

Some days,

This is just how it goes

You are not alone.


Some days,

You awake to the beautiful sound of birds

Chirping outside your window

The sun sneaks its way into your room

A smile creeps across your face as you realize you are awake to see a new day

You make a good breakfast

You read a few pages of your favorite book

You get your mind ready for the things it will accomplish today

Before you know it you've worked an entire day

Your job is done

As you pull into your driveway,

you take a few breaths

Feeling grateful for another meaningful day.

Some days,

This is how it goes

You are not alone.


Every day is a gamble,

Every day is a gift

The key to getting more good days

Is believing that everyday is one.

You are not alone, this is just how it goes.

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