The relationship I am in now is the most amazing one I have ever been in. I know that my boyfriend will stick by my side through anything, and I would do the same for him. In the beginning, I questioned why this one felt different from the very beginning. Sure, he bought me gifts and surprised me all the time, but that wasn't what felt new. There was something about him that convinced me that he might be the one. I couldn't figure it out until we had been together for a little over three months. I finally knew what drew me into him, and I knew what kept me there. He can make me laugh. No matter what the situation is he can always make me laugh.
I never thought that being able to laugh would be an important part of a relationship. I just thought that it was a definite bonus. It can greatly change the relationship, though. In my previous relationships, there was no laughter. There was always fighting and drama. I wasn't able to be myself. I was constantly afraid of making them angry. There were rarely smiling moments. Now I am able to be my weird self. I can sit in front of a webcam eating a jar of Nutella and not worry at all. We can spend hours upon hours laughing at absolutely nothing. There is always a sense of comfort and safety when you can be yourself with someone.
It felt freeing the first time he made me laugh. I can barely remember what it was about. I know we were at his house. We were both sitting in our separate cars. He brought me there to meet his dogs. I was nervous because we were strangers. Before I pulled out of that driveway it felt like I had known him forever. I ended up being late for my class that day, but I was happier than I had been in a long time. My stomach still hurts from laughing so hard, and that was the beginning of it all.
He would tell me stories of how he was so oblivious that it hurt, and how fishing was one of his favorite things to do. He would complain about his hair, and he would always talk about his car. We would joke over whose Honda was better, even though we both knew that mine was clearly the best. We would spend small amounts of time every single day throwing a tennis ball for his dogs and talking. I never left without a smile on my face. Eventually, we just clicked. I was nervous, and so was he, but it was an excited kind of nervous. It was the nervous feeling you get with new beginnings.
With every laugh there was more of myself coming out. I was no longer afraid to hide myself. I was already starting over, but this was my actual fresh start. This was me starting to be me. I was no longer hiding who I truly was. He actually liked me, even with all of my strange quirks. It was a new life, and it made me stronger than ever before. He made me stronger than before. He had nervously held my hand when I laughed the first time, and in that moment he became my person, and I became his. I know that we will make it through anything, and I know we'll do it one laugh at a time.
