This time last year, I was a constant mess. I couldn't sleep, I'd have panic attacks, I'd cry. I couldn't bare the weight of the world on my shoulders. Between learning a foreign language and taking statistics, my brain was in a scramble.
This year, I'm handling working part time, taking 19 credit hours, and running my own photography business. So why am I not cracking under the pressure?
One night, in the middle of all my confusion, I prayed about it. I've never been a religious person and all my past attempts at praying had left me feeling like a fake, but this was different. I was at rock bottom. And I couldn't do it alone.
Since that day, it hasn't been easy by any means, but I'm still in one piece. Mostly because I haven't been alone. I know something now I didn't know then. I now know that it will all work out how it's supposed to.
Maybe I don't get an 'A' on a research paper, that's fine. Maybe I don't always eat healthy, that's fine. Maybe I enjoy being in my hometown more than at college, that's fine. God has a greater plan for me and that's where I have to put my faith.
Don't get me wrong, I work hard, but it's amazing how much harder I work when I'm passionate about something. I'm constantly thinking about owning my own business --everything I would do, everything I need to do, and how much fun it will be.
The scariest part? The money. How in the world is a college graduate going to make it with student debt and a new business? Not to mention that I'll be passing up a great salary that I could be earning if I worked for a company that valued my degree.
But I don't worry. It's all going to work out because God has it planned out. We all have our passions for a reason; they are meant to guide us towards our purpose in life. They might not lead us there right away, but when we listen to our hearts it will lead to happiness.
And all we have to do is follow the plan, believe and have faith. We are where we are for a reason, and we don't have to know where our path will lead -- we just have to have faith.
