Are You There, Hopes And Dreams? It's Me, Reality.

I look at different career paths and I think, “What if I became this *insert profession*?”

I begin to fantasize about different jobs I could take on. For example, a writer!

Honestly, I would rather sit down and write these articles than read about the stages of childbirth because that is not something I would like to learn about at 9 a.m. The stages of childbirth aren’t really applicable at this moment of my life, as I don’t really think the picture of the dead lemur on my wall from "Zoboomafoo" is particularly alluring to college boys- unless they are into that...which I would fear.

Anyway, writing is something I really enjoy. I used to invent stories when I was younger that would always have one key element: cats. I like to consider myself as a verbose person. But of course, I have more dreams than being a writer.

What if I was an animator? One of my best friends and I decided to take on writing the plot for a show idea, and maybe, someday hopefully, it will become an animated show. I love doodling in class, and it would be so fun being a team with someone I really care about. I sometimes think of ideas for our show in class, and think of music that could go well with our ideas if they get animated someday….

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There are two more ideas I’ve been considering too.

What if I was a pediatric nurse? I would be able to do something involving kids, which I would certainly enjoy. I have the personality of someone who would be perfect to be a nurse too, as I think I truly care about people which is something nurses need in order to be successful. Both of my parents are nurses and I could certainly gain experience. But, would I enjoy it? At this moment in time, I don’t have enough experience to even feel qualified to answer that.

The last, and most considered idea of mine is teaching. I love taking care of children, and seeing the joy they experience. I’ve also begun to gain experience in teaching, but I still feel like I need more. I want to know if this is the profession for me, but I also want to explore my other talents as well. It’s a conflicting process.

I don’t know if I have the confidence required to pursue these professions nor do I feel adequate enough. Additionally, I want to use all my talents to the best of my ability. Why can’t I have it all like Sharpay from High School Musical? I know, I know- I’ve said people can become anything they want to in articles, but I’m afraid. In this day and age, it’s terrifying to choose a major because it sometimes feels limiting and not exclusive of every talent I would want to employ. I’m also constantly afraid that there will always be someone better than me at what I’m doing.

Recently, I found a Buzz Feed video that offers good advice to my questions. It might help anyone else who has the same worries I have about the future.

As I flee the fact that I should be studying biology, I would like to believe that I’m a writer, an animator, a nurse and a teacher simultaneously in an alternative universe.