I know what you're going through isn't easy. I know you're dealing with more than you could possibly imagine, and for that I truly hope that you get better.

Everything you're going through is not forever. I know sometimes you feel like the walls are closing in. There's so much pressure on you to do so well, and everything that you're going through seems like you're going one step forward and two steps back. You're not. In fact, you're going three steps forward. They may be small, and they may be some of the hardest steps you've ever made. But I promise you, it is progress.

Those days where you just want to go home and not go through school anymore. It's exhausting, isn't it? To sit there and feel like getting out of bed would take a marathon runner's strength and endurance. I know. But I promise you that you can do it. I believe in you. As much as you hurt me, as much as my stomach hurts when I hear your name, I still want the best for you.

College ends. College is not easy. It pushes you so hard to your mental capacity that you feel like you're going crazy. You're not. You're just going through a very stressful time in your life. But it ends. Come May, you're starting your life. And I know that you're gonna do so well.

I hope you find someone who makes your world spin backwards. Your heart is so full of compassion. I know that deep down you want nothing but happiness and love for everyone around you. But I also know that she broke your heart so badly, that she twisted your sense of reality when it comes to love that you have a lot to work on. That's okay, I understand. I've been there. It gets better, someday you'll find someone who makes you forget all that pain that you experienced. You'll know that you went through it. But you won't ever know what it feels like again.

Maybe we didn't work. That's okay. I'm not mad. I'm not mad. Actually, I'm very happy that we didn't work. Not because I want you out of my life- I'd love for you to be in my life. I'm glad we didn't work because I've finally opened your eyes to see that it's possible to heal, and I'm glad you see now that you need to do that on your own. It's possible to look at the world with color again, as much as she caused you to see just different shades of gray.

I know you're not a bad person, as much as you'd like to portray yourself as one. It's such a front. Talking with you until 4 am, laughing at everything together. I saw how your blue eyes could light up a room. I saw the way that you were able to look at me-like I was the most breathtaking thing that you've ever seen. Your soul is beautiful. It made me feel so comforted. As mad as I could ever be at you, when I looked at you, you'd move your head to the side, and you'd smile at me. It was genuine. And for some reason, it just made everything that happened seem so minute. You'd do it in the morning before I would leave, and you'd do it at night when I would come back from work, tired and ready to just roll into bed and fall asleep. You would say that you were sorry after we would fight and I could see it in your face that you actually were. I believed that you were. But I also believe that everything everyone was saying to you was getting to you.

You need to stop believing everything that you hear. A lot of what you hear isn't true, in fact, I can assure you that almost everything that you hear isn't true. You have so much growing up to do. Everyone isn't always out for your best intentions, as much as I know you want to believe them to be.

So, no. I didn't get to experience everything that I wanted to with you. I wanted to show you how you should be treated. I wanted to show you that people don't want you to just pay for everything and use you for their own personal gain. I cared. And if anything came out of this, I hope you know that for once, you had someone who truly cared about you. Even for a short time, you had that after she destroyed any hope you ever had of having someone who did. And I hope someday you find someone who does again, and you never lose them. I hope you two share the world together. You have so much to offer someone.

But first, you need to care for you.