I Became A 'Hook-Up And Party' Girl For A Year, And That's OK

I Became A 'Hook-Up And Party' Girl For A Year, And That's OK

Sorry, but that's not the girl I am.

I Became A 'Hook-Up And Party' Girl For A Year, And That's OK
Madison Zegarlowicz

I know what you're thinking. What the HELL does that even mean?

Please, allow me to explain.

I know I'm typically the girl that you'll catch pining after lost loves, and then writing about them, but for a year, I tried to change the way I dealt with pain. Instead of writing about my ex, I partied to forget him. I danced with strangers. I had a few too many.

And it was a year, a whole 365+ days, that I enjoyed life more than I ever have. It was exactly what I needed.

Now that it's over, it's time to reflect.

Before I began this crazy mess in which I vowed to become a person that I never thought I would, I judged people that were the person I wanted to become. I rolled my eyes at people who would post drunk snaps and wander in at 3 A.M. with hickeys, self-hatred, and an eventual hangover.

I was so much better than that, I said.

And then I was that girl.

The funny thing, though, is that when that was me, I was convinced I was living my best life. I looked at people who weren't living the life I was living and thought they were lame, that they had no idea what life had in store for them.

I scoffed at my parents when they became concerned.

I thought they were the ones who didn't have their lives in order just because they didn't understand the life I submersed myself in. How ridiculous, right?

The fact is that spending my Friday nights dressed in next to nothing, going shot-for-shot with friends, drinking countless mixed-drinks, dancing like crazy, and sucking at beer pong only led me to hating myself in the morning and then doing it all again the next night. Sure, it was fun in the moment, but after the fact? It was always a disaster.

Mix that alcohol with other people, with boys, and you have a whole other mess that I absolutely partook in. (Again, I thought I was living my best life and not making a fool of myself.) But, let me say that being "that girl", the get drunk and hook-up kind, does not make me any less of a person. I don't regret it. I needed to be that girl in order to learn from it.

I needed to become that girl, if only for a mere 365 days, to learn that at my core I am not that girl.

Going shot-for-shot on a Friday night and waking up at four in the morning next to someone I barely know is not the life I want to live.

If that's how you choose to live your life, I support you, sister! Do whatever it is that makes you happy!

I learned more about myself in the past year than I ever thought I would. Sure, it was a fun experience while it was all happening, but ultimately it's not for me.

I tried to be the hook-up and party girl for a year, and needed the experience, just so I could say that was not the girl I wanted to be.

Sorry, but that's not the girl I am.

Report this Content

Being a pharmacy technician never held as many risks as it does now. Exposure too hazardous conditions were little to none, and garbing up was only conducted in IV compounding. But, now, in order to give nurses the medications they need to help their patients, they need us, pharmacy technicians.

Keep Reading... Show less

TikTok was banned by the president, but Instagram is here with its newest feature called Reel. Many of us are still wondering why TikTok was being banned in the first place. Was it all the dangerous TikTok trends? It was because of a security concern, but not in the way you might think.

TikTok is owned by Dancebyte, which is a China-owned company. Basically, just like any other app, TikTok collects the user's data. The main question to ask yourself when investing in any app or marketing tools who will be owning my data? So yes, China currently owns all the TikTok user's data worldwide.

Keep Reading... Show less

I've always been a huge Disney villain fan — whether it was for their cryptic one-liners, enviable outfits, or sidekick banter. Some of the most iconic lines from cinematic history have been said by the characters we love to hate and occasionally dress up as once a year.

The fear-mongering Gaston I now find hilariously cringe-worthy is now charming and oftentimes considered by fans as rightfully justified in his actions. Die-hard fans of the Disney villain fan club claim alternate egos in their favorite evil characters, adopting their hilarious witticisms into everyday life.

Keep Reading... Show less

I've been an athlete my entire life. I love movement and I've been jumping, kicking, swimming, dancing, throwing, you name it since I was in diapers. I'm also pretty competitive and probably went through a few sore loser phases. What can I say? I like to win, and losing can sometimes feel like I've failed. Especially, when your competitor is your best friend or someone that you worked all year long to defeat.

Keep Reading... Show less

I am not in any way any sort of medical expert. These are just some tricks that work for me and have worked for others who also suffer from anxiety. These may not work for everyone, but I do hope these help some people in their fight against anxiety.

Keep Reading... Show less

- I have extremely sensitive skin, which is why I have always resorted to a plant-based organic beauty line such as Radha Beauty.

- Radha Beauty won me over years ago when I was looking for organic skincare brands.

- I was so excited to see they launched a new line incorporating USDA organic rosehip oil, so when their PR team sent me some, I could not have been more thrilled.

- After a week of using the products, my face felt as smooth as a baby's, looked more glowy than ever, and even cured some of my summer sunburn.

Radha Beauty isn't just a best-selling beauty brand on Amazon — it's a USDA-certified organic beauty brand I live by, and anyone who knows me knows I am all about holistic wellness.

Typically, it only takes three days for me to tell if a skin product is working or not because I have extremely sensitive skin. It's also why I have always stuck by plant-based organic beauty lines such as Radha Beauty.

Keep Reading... Show less

I have definitely had my fair share of breakups. I broke up with my high school sweetheart my second semester of college (he was cheating on me), I had a breakup with another guy I thought I was going to marry, and others in between. Regardless of whether you're the one doing the dumping or being dumped, breakups can HURT.

Keep Reading... Show less

Social media is something many of us have been addicted to (whether we want to believe it or not) since the moment we got it. I remember getting Facebook at 10. Instantly I was hooked. I loved being able to share my life with people, a little too much in my opinion, and I loved being able to see how/what other people were doing all the time.

Keep Reading... Show less

-Having struggled with acne prone skin for years, I was cautious to try a new serum on top of the other products I've come to trust.

Keep Reading... Show less

I have always felt left out because of how I look and who I am. I have always felt like the elephant in the room, literally. I have always been shamed for my size. For the longest time, I cared so much about what I wear and who I wore certain things in front of. I never wanted to wear shirts that would show a lot of my arm, located above my elbow. I wouldn't wear shorts that didn't go to the tip of my knees, at least. I never wore anything remotely tight, where you could see every curve, roll, or imperfection. I was so insecure about myself, and not many of my friends knew.

Keep Reading... Show less
Health and Wellness

Your Social Activism May Actually Benefit From A Cleansing Social Media Detox

In the craziest year of our lives, sometimes there's value in taking a break.

We are living through, unequivocally, one of the most dangerous, unstable, chaotic periods of any of our lives. From COVID-19 to crises of police brutality to the mass exploitation of the poor by mega-corporations, the world outside seems to be looking more dystopic every day. What can be done about it? For many, activism involves heavily posting on social media to keep others aware. However, this comes with a net negative cost — increased levels of anxiety, depression, and hopelessness about the state of the world. Why might this be? After all, in past eras activists have endured comparable and greater levels of abuse and relentless torment from oppressors. Why, now, are people getting so easily burnt out?

Keep Reading... Show less
Facebook Comments