Dear Mom,
I know that that you have worried about me every single day since before the day I was born. I know that you worried about how healthy I would be when I came into the world. I know that you worried about me when I started to walk on my own. I know you worried about my first day of kindergarten. I know you worried about the first time I learned to ride a bike. I know you worried about how I would handle high school drama. I know you worried about me getting into the college of my dreams. And then, you worried about me leaving for school.
Going off to college was a time that was full of many emotions, some sad ones, but many were happy ones. The happy experiences like: buying all my bedding from Bed Bath & Beyond, finding the best college wardrobe from Target after being there all afternoon, and then the process of moving into my new home away from home. Then there were the sad emotions, saying goodbye to my best friend, my home, dad and the girls. Hugging you goodbye and watching you drive away without me in the car. I knew you were worried the entire time you drove home, thinking of things we might have forgotten, or just that fact that I wouldn't be seeing you everyday after you got home from work anymore. Once you got back home you worried about how my first day of classes went, whether or not I was making friends. And everyday after, you have worried about me, and how I’m handling being away from home-from you.
Mom, I hope you know I am doing great— I have made some of my best friends in the few short months that I've been here, learned from the mistakes I've made, and I’m growing so much as a person. I am happy-thriving. There are still those nights that I just need to talk to you though. To vent about a professor that I can’t stand, or talk about the test that I stayed up till 3 am studying for. I’ll always want to call you, because I know you worry. It’s your job. And I know I probably don't help help ease your mind. But God made moms to worry about their kids, it’s one of many ways they show their love. I know how much you love me because no matter what time it is you always make sure to call or text to say, ‘I love you’ even when you want nothing more than to go back to sleep. So, thank you for worrying, it’s taught me how to care for others, and how to love even more.
But, there's something else I want you to know.
I want you to know that I will always be there for you too. Just because you're my mom doesn't mean we don't share the same struggles. I promise to always answer your calls whenever you need me, even if they're at 6:15 in the morning. The day might not come today, tomorrow, or even in the next few months, but the second you need me, I promise to be there.
There's so much more I wish I had the words to say, but for now I suppose I'll end this letter with a thank you. Thank you for everything you do, have done, and will do for me. Thank you for being the one person I can constantly count on through everything life throws at me. I know that even if you're working or doing something else, you will be there for me- no questions asked and that means everything. Thank you for instilling in me the same compassion that you have yourself, for helping me understand the importance of putting others first, teaching me to stick to my guns and fight for what I believe in, and for reminding me that it's okay to say no and take care of myself every once and a while. Most of all, thank you for loving me with your whole heart plus some. I hope you know that I love you too. I know that I don't show or tell you nearly enough, but I hope that this letter can be a start to changing that.
With love,
Me
