When I first received the news that you were gone, my life felt like it stopped for a minute. It was official, you were called to Heaven and I was forced to be strong for my family and I's sake.

It feels as if you've been gone for years, when in fact it has only been a few months. There are days when I feel fine and feel like I can come to terms with a loss, but other days come when I miss you with every fiber in my being.

This holiday season the Christmas lights will be a little less brighter, the holiday cheer a little less merry, and the holidays themselves a little less exciting.

You were the reason why the Christmas season was a delight. Seeing your face light up when we opened presents, with every greeting and a "Merry Christmas," you loved it all.

As the season approaches, the winter days will seem longer and colder. You were the fire that kept us all warm and happy.

No gift that I get to receive this holiday season will compare to the gift I long to have, and that is to have you still alive and breathing. But I know that's impossible.

The only way that I can keep your memory alive this holiday season is by cherishing every moment that I get with my family, and tell of your crazy and amazing stories to keep a positive energy.

I know that I may be upset and the rest of the family too at your passing, but we all know that what you would have loved is for all of us to be happy and cheerful.

I hope you are having an amazing and celestial time in Heaven, and that you're all watching us open presents with a smile on our face.

However, we all know you were our biggest present. Speaking of present, that's where we have to focus our attention to. We must live in the present, enjoy the times that are ahead of us and the holiday season even though it won't be the same anymore.

I love you.

Merry Christmas from me, to you in Heaven.