I wrote this several weeks ago while I was in a time of curiosity and longing for a love only God can provide, in all relationships. I know many of you can relate. So, here is my heart.
Dear God,
Through it all, my eyes are on you... I pray for your will be done. I ask that in all my relationships, romantic, friendly, and neighborly relationships be your will. I pray that you hold onto me and give me the words to speak, actions to take, and the path to choose and follow according to your plan.
My romantic relationships, you know my past, you know I'm hurting, you know my heart. Yet through it all you still call me to draw nearer to yourself. You love me regardless of the decisions and mistakes I've made. You have this perfect kind of love. I know I have hurt you in the past yet you call me your princess! I don't deserve a love like that! Yet I have that and I know that, that love you have for me, will transfer to a wonderful guy who loves you more than anything. I know it's true. You have promised me a friendship with a man whom I will grow to love and marry some day. A man who will love you, lead and guide me closer to you, and have my best interest at heart as will I. I pray you will be in my future (romantic) relationship.
Friendly relationships, Lord, I pray for my friends. You know they mean the world to me. I have never known how much much they care and look up to me. I just love people. Lord, they see You and me and that's what makes them love me. I am so beyond blessed and happy to know that. I pray that as I continue to grow in our friendships that they see You in me and they draw nearer to you through me.
Neighborly relations, we are talking about this in class. What does it mean to be a neighbor? It means to love the people around me as myself. It means loving someone I wouldn't normally love on. Though I love people, some people are hard to love, myself included. Yet, through the example of your love for me, I can go out into this world and be your hands and feet, but only if you equip me.
So know I ask, Lord what is it you want from me? What do you want me to do? Wait. Be patient. Lord you know that's hard for me. You know this clearly, yet you ask this of me. Lord let your will be done. If this is your will, I trust you. I have trusted you in my past relationships and I trust you in the future. Please make the path know and revealed before me. Though the trees may make it seem dark, dangerous, and scary, I trust you through it all. I love you so much!!
In His Name I Pray,
Amen
