Decisions, decisions, this year has been a crazy year, full of emotions. So many male candidates that could be the right choice, but I always seem to find something wrong with each one.

There has been one candidate that I've been knowing since the first day of school, and he's like gum on a shoe, I try hard to scrape him off, but I just can't seem to let him go. This boy has my heart and makes me feel a certain way that nobody else can. Now I am not in love, but I do truly care for him.

The problem is one of the candidates I have been knowing since high school, and I care for him a lot. but he played me once (that's a long story), and although I forgave him months later and tried again, it was not the same feeling as before, and I didn't feel right leading him on.

Now there were more candidates, but none of them made me feel the way that the first candidate did. Now here's the problem.... HE'S NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP!!! I know story of almost every girls life, they say with their mouth their not ready, but their actions say another thing.

I had to let go of candidate two as a romance, and keep just a friendship. Now Candidate one, is a difficult situation, I try so hard to let go, but I just cant get that gum off my shoe. Whether he's coming back to me, or I'm coming back to him, it's been a struggle this year.

The moral of the story I just need to decide, to either let him go and figure out how to do that, or keep entertaining the candidate one and enjoy the ride.