Hello Brother,

It's been awhile. I just wanted to pop in and tell you that all is well. Everyone's doing fine. We miss you.

I miss you.

I'm 20 now, almost 21! Can you believe it? Last time you saw me I was so small, running around in my overalls; which I wouldn't mind owning a pair of again. Those were simpler times. Times when I didn't even have to go to the bathroom by myself. I've done a lot of growing up.

Our favorite movies have all become remakes and they're awful. You should've seen Godzilla, and all three seconds of his screen time. RoboCop quite literally put me to sleep. I could rant all day, but I didn't come here to talk about movies.

I wish I could hear from you. I wish you could tell me how you're doing. Give me an update, anything. But, I know that's not possible. It just hurts.

People never understand what it feels like to miss you, unless they've gone through what I have. People actually tell me I'll get over it, that things will get better, that the pain will go away. It doesn't. It hasn't. It never will. You don't just wake up one day after losing someone, and things are suddenly any easier. It doesn't get easier to see a fire truck; I still think about you. It doesn't get any easier to explain our situation when people ask me about my siblings. It doesn't get any easier acting like I'm okay. It's just hard missing you, but I know this is only temporary.

LeaMichele graduated from FSU this past year! She's so smart. Looking into medical school now, actually. I'm a junior, studying music education and english. I'm actually at school in Mississippi, and I'm sure you'd ask the same question everyone else does, "Why Mississippi?" I don't really know either, man, but I love it here.

I know you never really got to meet them, but our other siblings are doing great, as well. Donovin is a freshman in college, Angel is a junior in high school and Kemison just started his freshman year of high school! Our siblings are amazing.

Jennifer has three beautiful kids: Czarina just started middle school, and Demitrius and Cinzia are in elementary in school. I'm sure they'd love their Uncle Marvin.

Mom and Dad are still amazing. They do everything they can to provide and take care of us. They can be a little much at times, but I know they only do it out of love. You helped teach them how special each and every one of us are, and they just want to look out for us. They miss you so much.

There's so much I want to say, so much we could talk about, but I just wanted to write to you. Life is good but there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about you. I love you so much. Even though you're gone, I know you're always with me because "brothers don't let each other wander in the dark alone."

Until next time,

Addy