Dear my beloved Guardian Angel,
October is quickly approaching, I am now 21 years old and 15 long years have passed. I feel as if I have a full lifetime to share with you one day when we're both kicking it in heaven together. But then I remember, you have the best seat in the house, you see everything I am doing, you hear everything I am saying to you, you feel everything I am feeling, you're constantly giving me those mom hugs and kisses every daughter needs.. you are much closer than I could ever imagine.
They say that time heals all wounds, but death leaves a heartache that no one can seal and love leaves a memory that no one can steal. Ever since you've been gone, as your daughter, I have obtained many academic & athletic achievements, learned many life lessons, graduated high school and got accepted into Western Kentucky University, experienced that one strong heartbreak along with many other ones you'd call silly growing up, lost and gained many friendships and most importantly moved to BG, Kentucky. where you belong.
Here are 5 things you should know:
1. You have nothing to worry about.
Although, I do miss you more and more every day, and I question almost daily why you're gone. I am where I belong.
2. I am in great hands.
I know you're looking down smiling. Your best friend is my best friend and luckily my aunt / mother figure as well. Your brother is more than just my uncle, he guides me down the right pathway every day.
3. You are never forgotten.
Everywhere I go, everything I do, I am reminded of you. You are a huge part of me.
4. I will continue to strive for success.
I promise to stay on the right path, I promise to continue making you proud.
5. I will never let you down.
I hope to be almost half the person you were one day.
"Let my soul smile through my heart, and my heart smile through my eyes, that I may scatter rich smiles in sad hearts."
If Heaven wasn't so far away, things would be much simpler. The heartache would be nonexistent, and missing you wouldn't be so hard to take. I have longed for you multiple times, needing your maternal wisdom and that mother-daughter relationship I've witnessed within others growing up.
As is her mother, so is her daughter
Losing you felt as if I lost my other half, every daughter's first best friend is her mom. it's a connection like no other. But due to the circumstances, there's now an even stronger connection knowing and believing you're within my surroundings each and every day that I conquer.
There is truly no end to this letter, but this will have to do for now.
"So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you." -John 16:22
And Lastly, Mom,
I am forever loving and missing you.
XOXO
