Ah, the easiest and hardest thing to write about: love.

Everyone has there own personal love story with someone and whether a couple is still together or heartbroken there is always a story. Mine began the summer after I graduated, I had my eye on this girl that I had been friends with since middle school. We were decent friends never hung out outside of school but were friends for the eight hours we were in prison. I decided that summer that I would attempt to talk to this girl because I had nothing to lose I was looking for a summer fling before college and if we did not work then I had the summer to relax. Our first "date" ending up being my first time on a boat and on a lake and I could not stop flirting with her and doing my best to make myself appear to be the best choice for her. We ended up actually seeing each other the rest of the summer and decided that we should start dating even with the upcoming threat of long distance looming closer. The summer was over in a blink of an eye and we had our final goodbye with a nice evening trip to Olive Garden, we said our goodbyes and cried while I drove up to Ball State for my freshman year.

I consider myself a jack of all trades and the idea of not being able to see your significant for three months did not scare me at all. I was wrong about myself and the situation we were in.

The quote "Distance makes the heart grow fonder" is a true quote and while it was hard not being able to see her for months on end was so saddening but when Christmas break rolled around and we reunited and it was fireworks. The trend of the missing and sadness finally came to an end in May when we were back together for the summer. Our case was different than a majority of others in the coming fall she was leaving on a church mission and would be gone without contact for a year and a half. And that was ultimately where we would split up on, while she was away we ended things and it was the hardest thing I had to experience.

I am normally a very upbeat person and do my best to lift others up but when I was heartbroken I could do nothing that my old self could do. My whole life was flipped upside down and I felt I had no one and nowhere to turn to. Being sad and upset all the was one of the hardest times that I have experienced. I wanted to let anyone know that if you read this you are not alone and I went through a very hard time, my best friend broke my heart and I thought I was going marry that girl. Heartbreak is and will always be one of the hardest things to deal with but it will be okay no matter what. You will never be alone no matter what happens and if you feel alone seek help and spend more time with friends and family your heart will heal in time. Mine has and it took almost a full year, it will happen in time I promise.