After spending a lot of time focusing on my mental health and working on me, I found greater happiness than I had felt in a long time. I became more positive and everybody could tell. Because of this new attitude, now everybody seems to expect me to maintain this mood all the time.
Only the closest people to me will be able to tell when I'm dealing with something, while everyone else is left to assume I'm as content as ever. This definitely isn't always the case, and that is okay. It's normal to feel off your game, clouded, or even a little lost sometimes. It's how you choose to deal with it that matters the most.
This week, when trying to write my article, I felt stuck. I had many different thoughts on what I could try to write about, but I couldn't come up with a way to put them onto the screen the way I wanted to say them. Every time I tried to come up with a new idea, my mind went blank. Literally nothing in there. My mind had been overwhelmed with stressors of all types. I was feeling emotionally exhausted and the last thing I could think about was this article.
Also, I spent the majority of this past week in my bed. I would wake up, go to the gym, then come home and return to my bed. I'd come out of my room to make myself dinner, then retreat back to bed. I didn't feel like moving or participating in society at all.
The point of all of this is to show that sometimes, you deal with things and have to take a step back and just be by yourself to sort your thoughts out. Sometimes, it even affects your productivity levels, but these things are all okay. Everybody goes through it, and if they tell you they don't, they're lying.
No matter what I go through, I give myself some time to think about what is going on. I take the time to clear my head and try to think of the most positive outcomes for each circumstance. At the end of the day, you have the power in almost every situation in your life.
If something makes you mad, it's because you let it. If it makes you sad, you let it. Once you've gone through the emotions, sorted them out, and understood why you feel the way you do, it's time to let it go. If you're struggling with money, find a way to make money, think of a better saving method, make a plan- don't just accept the financial burden. In my case, I was struggling with this article, but I cleared my mind enough to sit down and get it done.
Winston Churchill famously said, "If you're going through hell, keep going. Why stop in it?". When life gets the best of you, keep pushing. If you can't control it, don't allow yourself to stress over it. If you can control it, find the best solution and solve it. When people get in these moods they tend to feel helpless. This snowballs and then you're left feeling bad for yourself. Then, it turns into isolation and even embarrassment for feeling the way you do. This is why it is important to understand that everybody goes through the fog. It happens, and as long as you pull yourself through, you will be okay.
It's always okay to not be okay.
