To my friend who was in love with a liar,
You never realized what this relationship had done to you. You just always wanted to look at the bright side. You were blind with lover’s eyes. You never wanted to think I was right. I always felt something was off about him, from the second I looked into his eyes. He seemed perfect on the paper and brought thrill and excitement to your life. You hid your secrets from everyone, about what was really going on behind the scenes. You were blind sided at the time of your life. Scared to acknowledge the truth before it was too late.
He drilled these ideas into your mind over time. Without thinking that they were all a lie. He never wanted you to think any different. He never let you go out with friends, without saying you betrayed him. He wanted to keep you all to himself, and never leave his side. When you did the slightest thing to irritate him, he would threaten you, he was the boy who said all of these things to you, to feed you deeper into infatuation and just so you would lie in bed with him. You lost friends by putting up a disguise and by telling everyone you were alright or fine. No one knew all the pain you were going through. Endlessly putting up with him and not getting any support from any of your friends, since he separated you from everyone you really cared about. You were scared, you did not want to lose him. He made you happy. He made you angry. He made you confused. You just wanted to please him and pay your dues. Everything seemed so perfect and bright. But it was all a lie. He controlled every aspect of your life. He never let you be you. He never wanted you to see the monster, he turned out to be.
He broke your heart overnight. He told you he woke up one morning and did not love you anymore. After all the things he had said to you, how could this be true?
The boy who said “I love you” a million times a day.
The boy who said “You’re my soulmate” to shut you up.
The boy who said, “I will never leave you” whenever you did something bad.
The boy who said, “You are my wife” on repeat, whenever he felt the slightest inclination of tension, to make you feel better about what you guys had.
The boy who said, “Everything’s alright” when everything was bad.
The boy who said, “I can’t wait to have kids with you”
The boy who said, “I love you so much, I never want to hurt you”
He left you with no explanation, besides things happen, people change and I just didn’t feel the same way.
The pain I saw you in when he broke your heart, made me numb too. The hardest thing is watching your best friend go through something that rips there heart out. I have never seen your soul go so blue. He crushed you.
All I can say is never let a guy control you. Never stand on the sidelines of a friend’s abusive relationship, always try to reach out, even if they shut you out. Just let them know you will always be here for them.
