You crave everything about him, from the way his eyes caress your face to the way the scent of his body lingers. You love the way his voice changes when he starts talking about things he cares about, or how he let you see him at his most vulnerable moments. The way you looked at life completely changed the moment he walked into it. You thought all the Disney Princess's were just fairy tales until you met him. He made you believe in magic, and that the love Nicholas Sparks wrote about was really out there and that you had found it, because it was like he was the blessing you always prayed for.

Somehow things changed without you noticing. Now you are up all night crying your heart out, and your makeup is running and there's a puddle of tears on your pillow. You can't stop wondering how things changed and what went wrong, but all you know is that you miss how crazy he used to be about you. Rethinking all the things he said, and you're blaming yourself for being so gullible. He knew exactly what you wanted to hear and by golly, he nailed every word to the "T." How did you not realize that he didn't mean it as much as you did?

When he asks you what's wrong a couple of days later, and you can believe he thinks you are that stupid. It will happen over and over, and he will just brush it off by saying, "I did nothing wrong." But you know exactly what happened. What do you do? Then you think to yourself, maybe I'll just let it go and it won't happen again. Low and behold it does. Love isn't ignoring you for a couple of days until he thinks everything has blown over. Love is irresistible. Love is not being able to sleep unless your person is cuddled next to you. Love is running your nails across their back every night until they fall asleep. Love has been forgiveness.

If you end things you'll hurt like hell and just wish he will call you, and he probably will. In the end, he's losing a girl that will love him more than the ones he's lost you because of. Because lord knows everyone tells you that you're dumb as hell, but you just can't stop loving him. You forgave him over and over and let him break your heart time and time again. Every time something happens he tells you that you are his world. You know it's all a lie yet you still love him and you can't believe that you listened every time he told "baby you're the only one for me." Because naturally everything he did proved that wrong.

You believed in magic once, but magic isn't commenting on another girl's Instagram pictures, or finding out that he's been hanging out with his ex that he cheated on you with for the first two years you were together. Then one day you walk into his house and find her there. At this point, you are broken into a million pieces. So now for the rest of your life, you'll be looking over your shoulder because you will be scared of losing him to the ex.

Magic isn't the puddle of tears on your pillow or the way your heart is broken into a million pieces. You up all night wondering if he's gone for good, or if one day he'll realize how much you love him. Magic was his t-shirts, kissing him before he left every morning, and magic definitely was the click. Sometimes things just don't go as you prayed and prayed. Love is a tricky thing. Nicholas Sparks writes about the type of love that puts fire into your soul. That's magic. It's out there, and one day you know when you aren't looking for it... It will find you.