Valentine's Day is here! I am single as usual!
I have been single all my life. It used to bother me: I had crushes just like everyone else. And I was rejected plenty of times. A lot of people made remarks about my weight and my dark skin, or the fact that I didn't wear a lot of makeup or that I didn't wear clothes that were considered "fashionable". When I was around 17-18, I was told that I was too innocent and guys didn't fall for that. Even recently, one of my family members told me that since I have a disability, finding a partner will be harder as no one understands it.
I wondered what was wrong with me. Do I have to be someone I am not to impress guys? Then I realised that I believe in true love and destiny, not just random flings. I want to have a wonderful personality, and I want people to be impressed by that, not just by being sexy! So I decided to have just one goal: to go to Berklee! I started focusing more on singing and my courses. I became a person more into their career and studies. I love that feeling, as I get to do what I love. This also helped me love and accept myself for who I am, and I started feeling much better about myself!
But during these years, there has been a lot of speculation. Some even thought that I could be a lesbian, as I haven't been committed with anyone my entire life. I just want to say that being more focused on my course and not having been attracted to many guys lately doesn't mean I have given up on guys completely. Like I said earlier, I believe in true love and destiny. I will be with someone when the time comes, and when I start getting that feeling. I will be with someone who would like me for who I am. Yes, sometimes I am scared to make a move due to my past experiences: I am different from other girls. But I don't want to try too hard. I just want to leave it to destiny and just live whatever life offers me. I have family and amazing friends who care for me, what else do I need?
So for all those people who are sad for not having a date during Valentine's Day, or who have been single all their life like me, don't be upset. You are worth it! You have time to explore a lot of things! You have a wonderful career! You have family and friends who care for you! Valentine's Day is a day of love, and love can be expressed in so many ways! You can spread love to your family, friends and even dogs. But please, learn to love yourself. Loving and accepting yourself means that negative comments lose their power. So please don't try too hard to impress anyone! You are amazing, just the way you are!
Happy Valentine's Day!
