What is summer? It is coming “home,” a place where I lived pretty much my whole life, but haven’t seen the past nine months while I was away at school. Here, I succumb into a daily routine of working day after day, slaving myself away just to have enough money to get through the school year. That’s summer. That’s the kind of summer when you are mildy becoming an adult and have a billion different responsibilities to attend to. There are no such worries when I’m away at school. College is where I can act like a kid again. That’s why I want to go back to school.
I miss school and its atmosphere.
As much as I hate it, I want to go back. Sure, I have piling mounds of homework. I have exams and labs to do. I have so much work to do just to slave for a passing grade, but it’s better than exhausting myself at a boring part-time job that I could care less for. At least when I finish my four years, I’ll have a degree that will take me places. There are so many things going around school while I am there to keep me occupied throughout the year unlike this “summer” bs. In other words, college is just a better, more fun way to past the time. That’s why I want to go back.
I miss my teammates.
I spent a lot of time with these ladies. Almost every day after school hours, we'd have practice. When we're not at pratice, we're out on campus doing events. When we're not appearing at events, we're volunteering. When we're not volunteering, we're cheering at a game. It felt like we were together 24/7. We formed a special bond over the years and I miss being with them. I miss enjoying the time we spent together bonding, becoming stronger as a team. I miss them. I miss school.
I miss my sisters.
They are also my home away from home. They pick me up when I’m feeling down. They have become a part of my support system and I don’t have that when I come “home.” I feel super distant. I live too far away and it’s disheartening that I can’t be where my sisters are. It hurts that I can’t spend time having fun with them. I want to be able to see my sisters everyday...so can school start already?
I miss my friends.
I made friends in college that are irreplaceable. Half of the friends I made are more real than the ones I spent high school with. Some are better friends than people I knew my whole life. When I come back home, I rarely go out on adventures. I rarely spend time with people other than my family because these so called “friends” I have at home are a waste of my time. When I come “home,” I swear all people want to do is get wasted. At least in college, my friends and I can have clean fun. They understand the struggles. We’re up until dawn finishing assignments. We eat pizza. We laugh. Other times, we will go out, but it is never an every day, weekend thing. Sometimes it feels better to relax and just enjoy each other’s company by just hanging out. It’s blissful to know I have great friends in college. That’s why I want school to start. It’s just where I rather be. College is a place with real people. I want to be surrounded by that.
I miss my freedom.
I love my parents and how they provide everything for me upon my return from school, but being at school gives me a sense of purpose. I have to rely on myself to pay bills, go grocery shopping, etc. I make dinner. I set my own curfew. I just feel more grown when I’m away and it feels like it gets taken away from me when I come back “home.” I appreciate my parents more when I am away anyways. Therefore, all I want to do is go back to school, so I can figure things out for myself again.
I just miss college.
The life. Everything that comes with it. The good. The bad. The ugly. I just want to go back. It’s where I made my mark. It’s the place where I’m finding myself. It’s the place where I am more than half the year and it will be for four years. As much as I love being with my family and having a so called summer break, I much rather be with my school. College has become my home and my heart lies with it. Literally barely in the heart of summer, I can’t wait to be back at school in the fall.
