To the guy who has seen me at my worst,
Thank you. I know you hear me say it time and time again, but thank you. It's known that since you entered my life, my mental health has taken a drastic nosedive, and you've seen every step of that descent. However, you have managed to stick with me no matter what. Your willingness to stay in with me when I don't want to be alone is astounding, especially when you have other plans. I always feel terrible when you want to stay with me, but you always assure me that it's fine. Even when you sit across the room so you don't hover over me and make me feel overwhelmed, I don't think you understand how much that means to me. You make me feel so safe when my brain tells me I'm not, and I'm not even sure how to thank someone for that, but here we are.
Let's be honest, I wouldn't be as broken yet held together if it wasn't for you. You know exactly how to handle my worst anxiety attacks and bouts of depression. You know what to say, what to do, and even what to tell others. I never thought that'd you'd be the one to help me in my time of need. You've taken the time to know me personally, learning all of the things in my life that I dare not say to anyone else. You don't judge me when I'm feeling out of whack. Rather, you tell me my feelings are valid and that it's perfectly fine to feel this way. You help me find the light in the dark tunnel I see before me.
I spent so much time working on myself so no one would have to help me in these times, and I don't want you to think that you helping me is wrong or hurtful to me. If anything, it has taught me to rely on people. I have relied on people in the past, and some have let me down, pushing help away, but with you, it's different. With you, I know you won't hurt me. I feel safe with you. You understand what is happening in my head when even I don't, and I never thought anyone could possess that power. Your heart is so kind that mine doesn't even compare. I hope to even acquire half of the kindness you show towards me.
I know I say it all the time, but thank you so much for dealing with me. I know you keep saying that there's no reason to thank you, but you're the only one who has made the time and effort to truly understand me. You make me feel safe when the only danger is my mind. You make me feel loved when I feel like it's impossible. You may not want to accept it, but you're one of the most important people in my life, and I hope that never changes. Thank you for entering my life when you did. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I feel like you becoming a part of my life was meant to happen.
Sincerely,
Me
