For the guy who makes all of the past hurt, the past heartbreak and tears and everything bad about relationships, worth it.
To my current boyfriend, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You finally broke through my walls and made me believe again. You came into my life when I needed you the most. You haven't given up on me, despite everything. You'll never know how much that means to me.
Before you came along, I was broken and still healing from the damage done in my last relationship. I had a toxic relationship. I spent a lot of my days crying, wondering if I would every find someone who would always stick by me and would appreciate me for me. I was literally terrified of the thought of a relationship, to the point of panic. So, thank you for being so understanding.
The most important thing I have discovered so far is my ability to be myself around you. I can laugh in front of you without fear of judgement. I can be loud and obnoxious while around my family, and you think it is "awesome". I can joke around with you, without pressure of having to change myself. I can be sarcastic and bitter without you taking it seriously. I'll never forget the first time we went out to eat at Rice Box together. You just ordered sushi, and when you asked what I wanted and I asked you if I could get fried rice, too. Rather than being offended by extra money you would have to spend, you told me to get whatever I wanted. You did not complain, and I will forever be thankful for that.
Everyday I notice myself finding more things that you do for me, that I cannot help but fall for. You make me feel appreciated every day. You make any bad day turn into a good day. You understand my daily need of naps or coffee. You make me feel beautiful, with or without make up on. You are the first guy I have ever been comfortable enough with to not wear makeup this early. You understand and fuel my love of dogs, including my cute pictures every day.
You have shown me what happiness really is and even though we have not been together for that long, you have already shown me what I have been missing out on in my previous relationships. You have shown me it is okay to trust someone again. It is okay to let someone into my life again. It is okay to involve you into my family.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Even if we do not last forever (I surely hope we do) you have shown me what it feels like to be valued, appreciated, and wanted as a person.
Although it is cliche, you have already become one of my best friends. I am so glad God brought me into my life.
I do not know what to do without your sarcasm throughout my day, your witty comebacks when I get sassy (which is a lot), your random medical facts, ER stories that gross yet somehow interest me, and mostly your laugh.
You're already the best, even if you do not think so!
