To the person who fixed me then broke me,
You. Just those three letters make my heart flutter like a hummingbird’s wings and ache at the same time. I remember when I first saw you. I never thought I would meet someone who would make me laugh again. I have not heard it for so long.
Or someone who would make me nervous to see them. I remember our first date. You looked so handsome and dressed up just for me. I remember studying for finals with you. You would tickle me if I got answers wrong and kiss me when I got them right.
Those eyes of yours would make me melt into a puddle when you looked at me. I would smile like a fool when I got a text from you. You made the bad days brighter and the good days even brighter. My heart that had been broken for so long slowly began to heal again piece by piece.
Before I knew it, I fell madly in love with you. You were the one I had waited for, literally for so long. The anxiety that I have battled for so long disappeared when I heard your voice or feel your arms wrap around me. However, one simple mistake led to you needing space.
My world shattered.
I began to feel my heart crumple and the wall I once had built (that you had crumpled) was under construction once again. I questioned every text, phone call, picture message, etc. My mama held me while I cried for you and begged God that it was not true.
How could you still have managed to look at me and say, “I love you.” Or even kiss me when I saw you?
Just come back and love me again. Please make all the anxiety, nightmares, and heartache go away. I promise I am not what you think. I am worth another chance. You do not know the pain I have been through before and how you make me feel complete again.
As Sam Hunt sung in his song Drinkin’ Too Much “Every dream I ever had was you, Hope you know I'm still in love, It's the kind you can't fall out of….”
Take the space, listen to Brantley Gilbert’s Fall into Me, and remember singing to me.
