The past fifteen months have been the most difficult, heartbreaking, grief stricken time I have ever had to go through. There has not been a day where I have not thought about you. It still feels as though yesterday I was told the most heart sinking information I have ever had to hear. I had to fathom the fact that I lost a part of my life. I know that we didn't spend everyday together but a piece of me is still missing. I still look for you sitting at the end of the table at Thanksgiving. I still go to your house hoping to find you somewhere at the end of the hallway or sitting at the kitchen table. Life is different without you.
Thank You for being my Guardian Angel, I know that you watch over me. I hope that I am making you happy up there. I know that you are cracking open a cold one and sharing it with Pa. I hope that you are laughing at corny jokes and eating Ma's delicious mac and cheese. Nobody knows how to make mac and cheese as well as she could. Extra cheese? Of Course.
I want you to know that I went to my Senior Prom. I wore a beautiful pink dress, I know that you don't care about fashion, but listen to me anyways. And yes, I know that you want to know. I did go to Prom with a boy. Don't worry he was just a friend. There is nobody to beat up...yet. After Prom came High School Graduation. I graduated with average grades but the point is, I still walked across that stage and received my diploma. I completed my first year of College as well. I met an enormous amount of new people. I wish you were here for me to tell you every story that I have.
I miss hearing you threaten to talk some sense into any person that was giving me a hard time. I miss when we were younger playing dominos on the floor in your living room. I miss when you would yell at me because I was slowly starting to wear makeup and you couldn't understand why. I miss the way you tell stories and the way you could make a five minute story turn into a five hour story. I miss you. We all miss you.
I love you more than I can ever describe. You were taken from this Earth way too soon and I did not even get the chance to hug you or say goodbye one last time. As the days come and go I miss you more and more. The black bracelet I wear on my left wrist, along with the picture in the back of my phone, help me remember that you are always with me.
Wish you were here with me. xoxo
Someone that misses you