I have never felt like I really belonged anywhere. I always had friends, but I never felt truly accepted or loved for who I am. Through really dark times in my life I felt alone and isolated because I didn't want people to judge me if I said something they didn't like or if I acted in a way I would be judged for. I never felt like I could truly be myself.
This past fall I transferred to my third college with an open heart and mind expecting great things for the future. I was happy to be on my own, getting out of the house and becoming more independent. However, with independence came the problems of feeling alone and isolated again, and I slipped back into a depression. I knew for a while I wanted to go out for Greek Life, so despite the demons I was facing within myself, I headed for recruitment week.
That week not only changed my life, it saved it. I met girls from different organizations who all had come together to be a part of something bigger than all of them. They shared a love for one another and a bond that could not be broken, and that was admirable. One group in particular stood out to me the most. The sisters of Alpha Sigma Tau talked about how their differences are what made them special and made them love each other even more. Each day I was more and more excited to get to see these girls and get to know them all.
I received my bid from ΑΣΤ on September 16, 2016 and that is a day I will never forget.
I was overcome with emotion that these girls chose me to become a part of their sisterhood. I felt loved right from the start and instantly accepted for the person I am. Alpha Sigma Tau is the reason I am still here today. Anytime I have a problem my sisters are there to lend a shoulder to cry on, make me laugh uncontrollably, or just be there to listen. I have the best big a girl could ask for who is literally the missing piece of me, and I met the most amazing people through this organization and I am so happy that I get to call them my sisters. They are my support system, my future bridesmaids, and truly influential women.
Alpha Sigma Tau has brought out the absolute best in me over the short period of time I have been a sister. They have shown me how much I matter and how much I have to contribute not only to our own organization, but to the rest of the world. They have shown me my worth and made me feel at ease in my own skin. I can only hope my sisters know how much they all mean to me as well.
TLAM
