When you can feel something ending, it makes turning the page that much more difficult. Saying goodbye to something that has become toxic can feel like it is killing you. But if you can get through saying it, you will be able to see that saying goodbye is actually the one thing that can save your life.
If you have reached the end of the rope with something, somewhere or someone toxic, holding on will only make things worse. You need to be able to know that your mental well-being is at stake. You are able to walk away and stop holding on to things that have hurt you once you allow yourself to understand exactly how bad the relationship is to you. Nothing worth having comes easy, so it is no surprise that you are struggling to say goodbye. Take the time to see the light at the end of the dark tunnel, you will thank yourself later.
Sometimes, you can't see how bad things are getting in certain situations. You turn a blind eye to the fact that you are involved in something that is only making you become less of yourself. But you should listen to the people around you who care about you. They are outside of the situation and can make a clear judgment on the severity of a situation. You don't have to be right all of the time. You can allow your loved ones to help you out, you're not alone.
I remember when I was you... afraid to allow good things to come into my life because I wanted to hold on to the bad things. You deserve the good that is coming into your life. The next chapter will be better than the last ones. Don't let your pride impact your future. I remember all of it, the good, the bad, and the terribly ugly. You are doing your best, I see it. Say goodbye to the thing holding you back. I promise it will save you.