This semester has marked the first time I’ve ever lived away from my parents for extended periods of time. I will be the first to admit that early on I did go back almost every weekend and miss them very much but that doesn’t change the fact that I’m slowly and surely learning to live without them. I’ve learned to look out for my own food, to actually wake myself up without needing them to be my safety net in case I sleep through the alarm and to operate on my own money. I’ve been so used to trying to make every dollar last as much as possible but being able to just ask for a few bucks if I find myself in a pinch.
That doesn’t mean I ever took it for granted or took advantage of it, I know damn well that's not what happens for a lot of people and I am absolutely grateful for the fact. Yet with that kind of support, they’ve helped me live a life I really got the most out of, it allowed me to enjoy a dedication to a sport that means so much to me, allowed me to spend some wonderful experiences with my friends, and in a slightly different way, allowed me to get such a quality education in all the schools I’ve been put in. This education is setting the foundations for me to be able to enjoy a life like this and much better if things go my way in the future thanks to, hopefully a well paying job that’ll help me live life to the fullest and one day hopefully provide for a family and take care of my parents the way they helped me.
Now, though, I find the urge within myself to not feed off of their income and to work off of my own. Basically, that means I’m as broke as can be, but then again, what would the college experience be without being broke? In all seriousness, it is absolutely going to be more difficult to go about my life with this new aim but that’s why I have made a step in my life towards full autonomy and why I’m bidding goodbye to my days as a dependent person. It’s not so much about what’s easier anymore, it’s about making my way towards being myself. I don’t mind being with my parents, I love them dearly and I have a very great relationship with them. They mean the world to me, and that’s why I want to be autonomous. They have given so much up for me and sacrificed many things for my sake their whole lives. The quicker I make my way towards autonomy, the faster they can take back so many of the things that they have given up for my sake.
I’ll admit, that I’m probably going to be back for winter/summer break and I’ll fold to accepting something here and there if I’m broke. I’m not above that, not just yet. But the switch has clicked in my head, and now I feel that I can move forward towards being a person who can keep himself afloat. Now, anyone know someplace that’s hiring?
