Grownups always said that time would move faster the busier you are, but I guess you never really know what someone is talking about until you actually live it. I'm definitely living it now. I feel like my first full year at OU flew by so fast. A lot faster than it did for me at RSU. I'm two years into my college career. Two down, two more years to go. Being in the halfway point right now, I'm reminded of so many things.
I'm reminded about how much I've grown as a person and how much I continue to push and better myself. I've always cared about my education and it's been the most important thing to me. But as of lately. I always seem to hear this question: "what are your plans?" I would say that I'm a pretty laid-back person, lots of people who know me call me an "old soul" and that I just go with the flow. However, when it comes to my future, I always have some type of plan: go to college, maybe go to graduate school, have the dream job, get married, have kids and grow old. Seems like a pretty simple plan, right? Not exactly. Grownups have to deal with money, taxes, deadlines and boring adult stuff. But plans change. People's hearts and intentions change. Everyone is heartbroken and disappointed at some point in their lives. We label ourselves as failure for not achieving the goals and dreams that we wanted. We think that we always need to have it all together, and that's simply not true. I've had to put a lot of my faith into God lately, it's not my plans that matter, it's His.
God created each and every one of us, we are all different and beautiful in His own image. He loves us all more than we can understand, so of course he has a special purpose for each of us. It's hard not knowing the future, to not know if something will work out or not. To not know if you get the job you want, if you get accepted into your dream college or not, to not know if something will work out or not. When should we stop our current dream for ourselves and find a new one?
I'm not meant to have everything always figured out. I have to trust and have faith in God that His plan is greater than my own. I know this is easier said than done. But it's always better to rely on God for advice, not necessarily answers to our questions. Sometimes my plans don't work out because God has better ones for me.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. -Proverbs 3:5-6
May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. -Psalm 20:4
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. -Proverbs 19:21
