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Give Me Noise

When you're at your all time low, do you like being alone in the silence?

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I've been keeping myself busy

So that way, my brain never goes silent

At times like these, it's crucial not to become crippled by your problems

But to think of ways to fill that emptiness

Even if it feels as if it is an emptiness that cannot be filled

A sadness that cannot be killed

But nothing is immortal

And nothing remains the same

To confirm this truth all you have to do is listen

As you stand out on the Earth's ground

You will hear tectonic plates moving and shifting around

But still, in this moment,

The quiet terrifies me quite literally

And I think it's because my thoughts are too big for my own head


When everything is silent and still

I begin to ask myself questions like why did I say that to that one person back in 2013?

Why did I give up on myself that one summer?

Why did I not study harder for that test?

Or other questions like who the hell am I

And what am I supposed to do with this life

Silence is my enemy

Silence is my tormentor

My destructor

The creator of my eventual catastrophe

While I drown in my despondency


My silence, my pain, and my past

Tag team me

Throwing jabs at me mercilessly

And my skin breaks

My face bruises and my heart aches

Give me noise, raise the volume

Speak a little louder, will you?

And save me from thinking too much

In this silence, I feel like I cannot breathe

Like this silence might just mean Doomsday for me

So give me noise

Give me noise

It is all I ask of you now and forever




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