Dear me,
You worth is not based on what a stupid high school boy makes you feel like it is. You do not need the newest iPhone or shoes or purse to fit in. You should not have to look a certain way to make friends. Do not get involved in the petty drama of high school. Be nice to everyone and don't judge others based on what they have or what they wear.
You don't need to have 30 good friends when you can have 2 or 3 best friends. Quality is better than quantity.
Be patient. The right friends will come. The right boy will come. Don't waste your time on boys who will end up doing nothing with their lives. Wait for the right one. He will come I promise and when he does you'll regret every boy you dated in high school. He will treat you in a way that they never did. He will love and respect you and treat you like a princess.
He won't make you feel like your value is in if you put out or not. He will actually listen to you and respect your opinions. He will text you back more than 2 times a day. He will help you grow and not hold you back. He will tell you how beautiful you are and he will actually mean it. Wait for this one. Don't waste your time trying to get the attention of a boy who is entertaining 5 other girls and only wants you when he isn't talking to one of them. He is not worth your time.
You don't want friends who talk about you behind your back no matter how popular you or they think they are. You don't want friends who will tell your business to others. Wait for the friend that is there for you at 2 p.m. when you wanna eat fast food and jam out in the car and the one that's there for you at 2 a.m. when you can't stop crying and just need someone to talk to because another stupid high school boy broke your heart.
Wait for the friend that even when you don't see each other for a long time it's like nothing changed when you see each other again and you pick up right where you left off.
Don't be mean to your mom. When you get to college you will call her every day and miss her like crazy. You'll end up crying because you're so homesick. You will need her when you need to make appointments, when you don't know what is the difference between the onions at the store and you need them to cook dinner and the recipe just calls for 1 onion, and when you are walking back from class and want to tell her about this ridiculous professor you have. She will love you unconditionally so be nice to her.
She is trying her best just like you are.
The life you have in high school is not the life you'll have forever. People change, you'll change too and for the better. Everyone has to grow up and move on. Go ahead and scream Fifteen by Taylor Swift at the top of your lungs and cry with your best friend because it describes your freshman year. Go to Prom and Homecoming. Participate in spirit week and cheer on your school's sports teams.
Enjoy your high school years because they don't last forever.
