I went to a pretty small high school. I had a great group of friends that never judged me for not doing certain things (drinking, partying, etc.). I was extremely spoiled by the great group of friends I had. I didn't think that I would ever feel uncomfortable because I didn't party, but when I got to the biggest party school in the state, that quickly changed.
I suddenly felt inferior to those who did go out five times a week. Never did I judge them for their actions because it wasn't my place to judge them. I felt like I was never going to find a good group of people who found joy from baking cookies after school and watching Jeopardy.
I never had a problem with the partying until it started to affect me directly. I wanted to be part of so many groups on campus, but most of these you had to be chosen. When it comes to these groups, some of them choose their friends, and not the people that truly deserve a spot. They chose the people that they went partying with every other night, and it's taken me a while to be okay with that.
I was never going to be one of those people that partied once a week, let alone five times a week, and that's okay. Being a fun person to be around isn't how much fun you are at the club or when you're drinking, but when you can turn a dull situation into a lively, fun one.
I'm happy with who I am, and I have found the “good eggs" in the world that making a gloomy day into a sunny one.