Why do I feel the way I do?

I can’t shake this feeling off.

I’m always waking up groggy.

Every time I look in the mirror before me, I see

somebody else that is not me.

Who is this person?

All I see is this 5’2 girl with dark brown hair.

A reflection of a girl who seems lost and confused about so many things.

Someone who is scared and at times feels alone.

Where did that smile go?

Every single time I look at myself in the mirror, I’m always telling myself

that who I see looking back at me is not who I really am.

This is a woman who is about to turn twenty-one soon and

she still does not have a clue who she is or what she wants.

Cannot help but feel like I am letting everyone else down. Like I am a disappointment to

everyone close to me. There are days where I just feel like I can’t do anything right and it

hurts me to see that others are hurt because of me.

But it’s getting better. My Boyfriend and I have finally started listening and working on our

issues.

All this is okay because life is a journey and someday I will have found myself.

And that beautiful smile will return but until then I just got to keep on going.

I can live the happy life I know I’m supposed to have.