OK, so maybe the headline is a little misleading. I haven't actually given up on my dreams, but rather, I've given up on obsessing over them. I, like most people, don't have just one ultimate dream. I have several. So many that if (when) one falls through, I'll have several more to strive for. That sounds all fine and dandy, but it's not worth it. It's not worth obsessing over.

See, I've given up on wasting my life thinking about the future. Since I've given up, I've been able to enjoy every moment of my present. One thing that we're not promised is tomorrow. If we spend every day thinking about every "tomorrow" then we will have wasted our entire lives. One day that "tomorrow" isn't going to come. So what have you done today? Today, I lived. I've stopped planning my future dream wedding. I've stopped worrying about interning at my dream agency. I've stopped thinking about my future little family, and where we'll live. I've stopped obsessing over getting my house renovations completed. I've stopped obsessing over where I'll attend graduate school. I've stopped thinking and creating that "dream guy."

Matthew 6:34 tells us, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Each day we are alive is a blessing. We shouldn't spend today worried about tomorrow. Today, we should thank God for getting us out of bed. Today, we should thank God for everything, good and bad. Each struggle we go through teaches us a lesson. So I'm not going stress about anything. I'm going to put everything in God's hands. I know He has a plan for me that's far greater than my dreams. We cannot control what God has in store for us. If we put our trust fully in Him, he will surprise us and over-power our happiness far more than we could ever imagine. I wish trusting Him was easier. It's difficult, but today I realized that it's worth it. Today, I realized how I'm going to live my life.

Today, I lived. I woke up aware of my current life. Today, I am a child of God. Today, I am a student at an excellent university. Today, I am a hardworking employee at my current job. Today, I'm not a mommy to a human child, but I have a kitty cat that I love to death.Today, I am the youngest I'll ever be. Today, I'm not married or engaged with that perfect dream engagement ring. Today, my house may not be finished, but I'm thankful to have a roof over my head. I still have those dreams. I'll still keep working towards them, but today, I'll live.