To all the friends I have left,
You probably know who you are right from the title and if you somehow come by this and end up reading it, I just want you to know a few things before I really begin this letter. There is always a reason as to why I do what I do. I will never do something so drastic without an intention or a turning point that takes me so far over the edge that I say "enough is enough". Leaving you is what was best for me at the time. This letter's purpose is to provide me the closure that I did not receive from you and to hopefully remind others that not all friendships are meant to last forever, even if you think it should and leaving toxic friendships will benefit YOU in the long run, which is what matters the most. Also, this letter is about more than one person.
There could be a million reasons why I said goodbye to a seemingly "good" friendship. You may have forgotten what it was like to be a true friend. You may have distanced yourself from me already and I just happened to get the hint before you could walk away first. You may have put other people or things in front of me and our friendship that I valued so much. You may have lost touch on what it means to be my friend and what both of us should gain out of our friendship. You may have hurt me in ways unspeakable that I could no longer approach and have been stored in a memory box in the back of my mind, never to be read again. Overall, the decision I made to leave the friendship was definitely best for me, even if that meant having no friends at all or throwing away years of wonderful memories.
Whether my leaving was expected or not, just know that I still think about you. I check up on you every once in a while on social media just to make sure you are doing alright. Although our friendship has faded, I don't think my care for your well-being has. You may think I regret my decision of leaving you, but honestly, I don't. At that time and in that place in my life, you were no longer doing any good for me. You brought me down more than you brought me up and I decided it was too much for me on multiple occasions. There is a standard definition of what it means to be a good friend and you just no longer fit that definition towards me.
I now want to say thank you to you. Because of you and the way you have treated me, I know what it means to be a true friend. I know how to value myself over others and I know what will happen when I walk away and stop the suffering. I understand what it is to gain a true friendship and I know how friends should act towards one another. Without you and the sh*tty way you treated me, I may have never learned those lessons, so thank you so much for that.
I wish you the best of luck in all your endeavors and I hope that you have learned how to be a better friend to others than you were to me because you surely taught me how to be one.
Sincerely,
The person who deleted the F in BFF
