I've been indecisive for as long as I can remember. From simple choices such as deciding what cereal to eat for breakfast to complex decisions of what the next step in my life should be, decisions always stress me out more than they should. I am the girl who made a number of pros and cons lists when choosing a college and to this day am still not sure that I made the right choice for me. I question my relationship with others and my career choice every single day wondering if the paths I have chosen are in my best interest.

It's exhausting being indecisive. I lay awake for hours at night analyzing every small decision that I made during the day as well as the big decisions that I am currently living or going to make in the future. My mind is forever racing and while it is overwhelming for me, I also know that it is sometimes overwhelming for the other people in my life. I know that people often get annoyed with us indecisive people, but I hope that I can add some perspective.

I definitely know that a major contributor to my indecisiveness is a lack of confidence in my decision making. A number of times in my life I have gotten myself into lots of trouble for being impulsive and making poor decisions on the spot. I just regret to have my own best interest at heart a lot of the time and I can't trust myself to make quick decisions without somehow causing negative consequences for myself or others. Due to this, I have definitely over-compensated. I stress out over the small annoying details of life in a way that I know isn't healthy, but just me being cautious.

So for those of you struggling with indecisiveness, no matter what the reason, I get you. It's okay to be cautious but we really need to learn how to trust ourselves again. I don't really know where my "gut" went (emotionally, certainly not physically), but I hope to get it back one of these days. For those of you who don't struggle with indecisiveness, I am so proud of you. The way that you trust yourself and are confident in your decisions is truly inspirational. For anyone out there who gets annoyed by the indecisive people in your life, give them a break. We are just terrified of what our decisions can become. As for me, I am ready to face my demons head on and fight for the power to trust in the beauty that decisiveness can hold.