When people hear me say things, they think, “She’s really pessimistic." Well, yes and no. It’s not like one day I woke up and decided I was going to hate the world. Things happen that make us react badly and we don't think before we speak. Sometimes I use the excuse that I just speak honest words but truly they aren't honest, they are just straight-up rude. I know the difference between being honest and sassy or having a bad attitude. I can be honest, like if I think a freshman is in my way I tell them to move out of the way because I don't want to be late and their slow and annoying.
Some days it’s not that I even really have a problem; I just like talking and I don't really like saying ' I love people,' well, because I don't. I like some people. Also just because I don't smile at you when we walk past each other doesn't mean I hate you. Well, it could but most likely not. Being at school does not make me a joyful person, therefore, I won’t show happiness. I do not show excessive amounts of joy when they aren't needed or in general because I feel like it is strange. I laugh all the time, though. Sometimes at people, with people, or next to people. Each person reacts differently due to the different stress in our life. Along with different stress comes the way we cope with things. My way to cope is complaining. Am I proud of that? Not particularly but I’m okay with it for now because I’m actually very pleased with what I have. I love my family, my friends and my dog. I’m secure about how I feel about myself. I’m not sick and for that I’m grateful.
As a teenage girl, I also believe that my problems are number one priority. But, obviously, they are not so getting over that.Why do we complain? Personally, I believe that complaining is just a way to justify why we believe are lives are worse. Ever try going a day without complaining or saying negative things? It is very difficult. The number of times an average person complains is about 30 times a day. That is a lot. I complain like 30 times every two hours, so I’m like two people. So for a change try and cut your complaints down by 10. So from the girl who hates everything I don’t really hate everything I just think I have no better way to express what truly going on inside. I don’t want cry all the time or smile all the time so I resort to anger. I try and tell myself, “Faith, if you act like this, nobody will talk to you.” "Ok, you don’t really want that because then you are upset about having no friends. You have to stop being indecisive about what you want. Look at what you have, and say 'I love this or I love that.'"
Things come and go daily. We really never know what happens or what we have until someone else has ours.
Now enjoy this picture of me because it's cute.
