Dear Future Self,
I’m laughing as I write this -- I remember writing a similar letter in the 5th grade and my teacher keeping it until the end of the year. Here I am, writing a similar letter.
Who knows when I will read it again: next year, in five years, or perhaps in ten years?
Well, here I am; “past” you. The decisions that I am making today, no matter how small and insignificant they may seem to me, are helping to shape you. I’m succeeding and doing great things, but I am also messing up and and facing hardships. It’s life; it’s our life.
You spent your childhood wanting time to slow down, but also itching to reach those “milestones” in life -- the double digits of 10, sweet 16, a totally legitimate 18-year-old adult, 21 and fun, etc. etc. You’ve felt both old and wise, but also young and insignificant.
Here’s something I want you to take to heart and to listen to -- slow down.
You move way too fast. Your mind is always in the future, worrying about class tomorrow or getting accepted into veterinary school next year.
Most of the time, you are not living in the moment, which is not a way to live. Slow down and enjoy what is happening when it is happening.
You have time, so stop stressing so much.
Make more time to go out with friends, to go on dates with your boyfriend, to have movie nights with your family (heck, go call your Mom, Dad, and sister right now! Let them know how much you love them, appreciate them, and need them.).
Make more time to to wish on dandelions, talk to strangers in coffee shops, and listen to new music for hours on end.
Don’t feel bad if you don’t finish what you think you’re supposed to because, chances are, you did what you were actually meant to do.
Don’t lose your relationship with God.
No matter how busy everyday life gets, make time to talk to God.
Make time to thank Him for all that He has down for you.
Make time to tell Him about your life and to open your heart about what you want.
Go to Church when you can and read your Bible verse every night.
It will keep you sane; He will keep you sane.
I know sometimes your anxiety is going to get bad; sometimes, it will truly be unbearable. But, here is the thing -- it will pass. It will. Just keep pushing another day, just one more day. Facetime Mom or color a picture or go listen to “C’mon” on repeat on your phone. The hot moments will end and cool moments will replace them.
No matter when you may think, the best is not behind you. Life is only going to continue to grow and get better.
Love,
Your 21-year-old self
