I don’t really know where to start. I feel like I’ve given you so many chances and it’s just resulted in being ghosted, and ultimately, I’m always let down.
I don’t get what’s happening in our friendship, but not just between us, between all of us. The original crew. I know you have your differences with some people, and I guess this is just how I’m coping with the situation. Maybe I just want things back to the way they were and I’m just going to bitch about it until it gets resolved. Scratch that, that’s exactly what I’m doing.
I tell you how much I genuinely miss you and that I think about you here and there, and it always ends in the same conversation, “I miss you too! Can I come see you?” or, “Let’s hang out soon please!” but that’s it. That’s the only thing that’s ever said. Plans never happen, and everything always falls through. But, why?
We used to all be inseparable.
Every day, and every night, we were all together and doing something. And one day, it just stopped. A few years have now passed and I wonder what went wrong, or where it went south. I never thought that a bond that strong could ever be broken.
It’s actually heartbreaking. I don’t know why I continue to give you the benefit of the doubt. Why do I make excuses for you or continue to stick up for you when everyone else says it’s just not worth it anymore. And I kind of agree with them in a sense. I don’t think it’s worth it anymore to reach out to you anymore, at least for a while. I think I needed to write this for some sort of closure. To put everything on the table.
I’m just really fucking upset with this entire situation, but for some reason, I can’t seem to stay mad at you.
Why do I give you so many chances when you continue to show me that you don’t deserve them? Seriously, what the fuck is up? I just wish you’d reach out, and actually tell me what’s going on. I understand times are tough and everyone is going through something now and then but it for real doesn’t give you the excuse to shut me, and others out.
I want answers, but I don’t expect you to give me them, at least not anytime soon. I don’t get you right now. Maybe we all needed time apart and this is the universe’s way of telling us. Maybe in a few years, we’ll bounce back together. We were all so close, and I know you miss that as much as the rest of us do. If you're reading this, please do something about it. Show me you care.
Fuck, show us that you care.
At the end of the day, regardless of the past, I’ll always be there for you. I don’t even know if you still think about us, but we think about you. And I really miss you.
