Have you ever been in a friendship where you tell each other absolutely everything? Have you ever thought to yourself you can not imagine life without them? Have you thought, "This was truly my best friend"?
You spend endless days and nights talking about your life with this person. Sharing things you would only tell them. But one day your friendship is different.
You start to see a change from this person. A change you never thought could be possible. You continue to ignore these changes but then they start to get worse.
You do not know why it has happened but it just has. You stop telling this person all your secrets once they change. But after a while, they don't even question why you don't tell them anything. You start to feel heartbroken inside.
Was it me? Was I not a good friend? You get worried you weren't good enough to be friends with this person. You start to question everything about yourself.
The most hurtful thing is that they don't seem like they care anymore. When you are hurting inside, they aren't there to comfort you anymore. It's just as if they left you in this huge world all by yourself.
Maybe this person was not meant to be in your life anymore, but this does not change the heartbreak you feel when losing a friend. This heartbreak is a terrible feeling. You start to feel insecure with yourself and with who you are as a person. You do not know why this person would hurt you so much. You know you would never hurt them the way they hurt you.
Now you are here to try to forget. All the memories, the talks and funny moments you have spent together. It is hard to just forget about someone who has been through it all with you; through the good times and the bad, someone who has seen you at your best and worst. But on this journey we call life, we have to realize that people change and life always moves forward.
As a young woman now, I have gotten my heart broken by so many people. Friends, boyfriends, the list goes on. It is okay to not be okay sometimes. It is okay to feel pain when someone has hurt you. Feeling emotions shouldn't be a negative thing. After getting hurt so many times I tried to shut off my feelings, but after a while I realized that the life I was trying to live was not healthy. I believe my experience with the people who have left me has shaped me into the person I am today. If it wasn't for my experiences I wouldn't have learned what life was all about. People change and even if you don't change with them it doesn't mean it's your fault.
