To the friend that left,

I have sat around numerous times wondering why you left. Wondering why one day you thought that being my friend wasn't what your life needed anymore because we were different. Sometimes when I think about all that we went through together I want to cry because I will never get those times with you back.

It hurts to know that the people you get comfortable with could just one day get up and decide to leave without any warning. The day you told me you wanted nothing to do with me still sits in my mind like it was yesterday. I remember being confused and uncertain about whether or not you were joking. We didn't always see eye to eye but I never thought that one day I wouldn't be able to walk down the street, open your door and feel at home and welcome. Now that I look back on that day, which was not too long ago all I can do is smile because thinking about the end makes me look back on the in-between.

I get to look back on all the valuable lessons you have taught me throughout our 13 years of friendship. Although some of those lessons may be silly, like always remembering where you put the sewing needle so nobody ends up with a needle sticking out of their knee, they have all changed my life in one way or another. You taught me to always remember my house key ( which I am still working on) so that I don't need to come up with some creative way to get into the house, like climbing through the doggy door. You taught me that it is okay to cry when you lose, which we both did when either of our sports teams we were on didn't do as well as we would've hoped. You also taught me through long hours of searching to always watch the random, not known horror movies on Netflix, because they are some of the best ones you will ever watch.

You were the person I mastered "pretending" to be asleep with during our numerous sleepovers because your mom would always come in to make sure we were actually sleeping and not laughing at two in the morning. We spent so many hours just sitting and staring at the ceiling talking about life and the future, that I never for a moment stopped to think that the future I was thinking about wouldn't have you in it. All though there are many lessons I have learned through my friendship with you, the most valuable would have to be that things always change and people always leave. I am not mad anymore over your decision because the memories made together will always be there, even if you're not around and those memories will always be some of the best of my life.