To the girl that saved my life:
Some might not understand when I say that you saved my life, after all, you didn't pull me from a burning building or give me a life-saving antidote or pull me up when I fell off a ledge. However, you most definitely saved my life.
I still remember the first time looking into your eyes, my hands shaking as if it were 20 degrees in the room, and saying the words that at the time I had no idea would change not just my life, but yours as well.
"I don't think I want to live anymore."
You were the first person I told, and as impossible as I had once thought it would be, you made it a task that was actually quite simple. You put your hand over mine and simply said: "Everything is going to be OK," and though they were just words and it didn't seem like it were true at the time, I believed them as if it was something I knew for sure would happen, just because it was you that spoke them to me.
I expected that to be all. I expected the subject to be dropped and for the both of us to move on with our lives, but you didn't do that. Every day was another reminder: "You're going to be OK," "I love you," "I'm here for you."
You held my hand as I cried, and spoke words of comfort even though you knew I wasn't listening, You left notes of encouragement for me that I still have to this day. You stuck by me even in a time when I told you I didn't want you around anymore.
Your positivity and overwhelming optimism were far too much for me to handle in the state of mind I was in - little did I know that the happiness you showed me was really covering up your own sadness.
I remember the first time you told me you loved me. I was taken aback and rejected the love. I didn't feel like I deserved to be loved by someone as amazing as you, but the first time those three words slipped out of my mouth, they felt right, they felt natural.
Because the truth is, I always did love you. From the moment I met you, I knew there was something about you that was going to change my life — and that you have. I loved you for every time you held my hand, or let me cry or hugging me when I was sad. I loved you because you loved me.
I am often reminded of a line from my favorite TV show, and that is "You are my person." (Greys Anatomy for the win, am I right?) You are the person who knows me — flaws and all — and still chooses to love me despite those flaws. I had someone tell me that they didn't understand how we were friends since we do fight (Quite a bit) and we make very bad decisions together (Are they really that bad though?) yet in the end, you will always be my person.
You not only saved my life, but you changed it too — and for that, I will never be able to thank you enough.