Dear Friend,
Throughout life, you continue to meet new people. Sometimes the people you meet stay in your life, but sometimes they don't. The people who stay usually become your best friends.
You and I have been friends for quite some time now and at one point we were inseparable. I would go to your house every weekend or we would go out on adventures, but then things gradually started to change. You got a job and eventually I did too. As a couple years went by, we both started to change. I saw a side of you I had never seen.
Best friends are the people whom you expect to always be there for you no matter what. Through thick and thin. Recently, I've slowly started to realize that you are here for the easy parts, the parts where I am happy and you are happy. I feel that when I have something wrong you want to help and you try to do so, but somehow you turn it back on your self. I wish you would listen to me more. Sometimes I feel like I can't even get a word in so I just stay quiet. I like to listen and hear what is going on in your life. I wanna be happy for you, but sometimes I feel like you rub it in. You don't do it on purpose because you're not like that, it's just how it comes across. I'm glad you're happy and I hope you continue to stay happy.
In the summer I could tell we were growing apart. I graduated high school and you planned to move away from home. I started to hang out and grow closer with different people and I think that made you upset. As summer ended, things seemed to get better, but then you moved away.
When you first moved, I gave you space so that you could adjust and meet new people without feeling like you were leaving things behind. Then time passed and I didn't talk to you and you didn't talk to me. Who knows, maybe as a defense mechanism I pushed you away. After all, I knew you were going to have different friends who you were going to grow closer to and I was afraid that you would actually leave me. We would talk here and there but when we did I could tell that you had changed a lot. You weren't the person I used to know. That scared me because I think what made us best friends before was that we were so much alike.
I know that I have changed too - not in the same way - but I definitely have. I didn't go to college right away and I can't relate to some of the things that have happened or that you have done. I have become more dependent on myself rather than others and I'm trying to figure out what makes me happy. I've grown up more in the past year. We are in different stages of our life right now and I think that is what makes our friendship difficult.
We have drifted and that's okay because you and I are different people now. Nothing is going to stay the same forever. I hope you stay happy and I pray that we can get to the point where we both have good lives and everything feels normal between us again.
Sincerely,
The friend who still has hope.
