That's right, I didn't want him.
After being in a relationship where I wasn't treated correctly, and where I was always the last priority, I thought I was in heaven when I found the guy who did everything right.
He texted me good morning.
He asked me how my day was going.
If I wanted to hangout with my friends he wouldn't bug me the whole time.
He trusted me.
He never got mad or upset with me.
He bought me dinner and flowers.
If I were to ever sit down and design a perfect man, he would have been the product of that design.
But in the end, I didn't want him.
And boy did I feel horrible when I had to end things. Because he didn't do anything wrong, it was all me. There wasn't any danger or possibility. It was too predictable. I'm not a sappy girl, but to say the least, he didn't light up my soul...there was no desire for him.
Everything was too easy. I am well aware, and I will be the first to admit, that I can be a very frustrating person to be in a relationship with and I didn't spark any frustration in him and that was so confusing for me.
He made me happy, but not excited.
He made me feel safe, but not scared.
He made me feel love, but not passion.
He was perfect, but there were no flaws.
As flawed as I am, I need someone who is just as flawed so that they can understand it all, otherwise, I will just be the person in their life that they have made a million exceptions for.





















