I am scared. I am scared that I am will never be fulfilled when it comes to life in general. I am scared I am not where I am supposed to be in this moment, or any moment. Every day of my life I think to myself "Is this right for me?" What if I am not where I belong, and I am wasting my life away on something that doesn't even matter?
I don't want to live with the "what ifs" anymore.
FOMO
The fear of missing out, or "a pervasive apprehension that others might be having rewarding experiences from which one is absent."
I am worried that one day I will sit down and decide this is not what i want anymore. I get uneasy thinking about all the opportunities I will never get. I get involved with every organization that sparked my interest. I am employed, taking 18 credit hour, on the exec board for an organization, as well as, an active member in others, yet I still feel like I'm missing something. I feel like there is a part of me that I have never seen that I have been longing to experience. I feel homesick for a place I've never been.
What does one do to stop having this feeling? There are answers that can be offered all over the internet, but I feel these answers don't pertain to me. I feel like the only way I can resolve this fear is experiencing it all, but experiencing it all means having to change the way life is right now. Changing my life right now is not what I need. I need stability, and I am getting stability where I am right now.
I don't know if I will ever get over this fear. I don't know if I will ever feel fulfilled. I know there is something greater than I out there, but I'm not sure how to get there, but I will get there.





















